people and their mouth ( sorry for using such foul language)

it's other people's mouth and they have every right to say what they want. even though it hurts.

we cant stop or change how people think.

i've been misunderstood, wrongly judged. How can this be??? i feel it is my damn bloody business if i want to move out and pay my bloody own rent even though i have to work more OT in Habitat. i Dont fucking care.

i feel so much happier staying outside. it's n ot like i've asked anyone for money(well except for my parents) or i'm begging or watever. As long as i did not ask a single penny from any of you. you have no bloody right to judge me. when i'm staying at someone's place for free. people say things as well. but all of u out there..do you think in this world things come free????? bloody hell NOT!!!!!i'm not staying for free at all...i pay for things too you know. that adds up almost as to my rent with my bills here. so do you still think i'm staying for free????? i just didnt want to say anything bcoz i look up to that person and i respect her. HOWEVER, if she can do something like this--->spreading rumours about me then fine...i suppose there's no need to respect people like this.

but however i would like to thank her for letting me stay there and know what kind of person she is. i cant bliv that person i used to look up to and being afraid of that person would be such a petty person. saying about other people's bad things. which to me is nonsensical and irrelevant. I don't care about all this nonsense. it's family politics and has nothing to do with me..

now this thing here is.the rumor about me.

i've moved out because i've got a chinese bf (which mean china guy) and STAYING with him and have broken up with my boyfriend. i didnt noe my story will be that interesting..i wonder if i dont say a thing...the story would be..

eeleen is now staying wif her china bf and that's the reason for moving AND now is _months pregnant. and going to get married soon and will be changing her citizenship to chinese national.

hahahah...oh dear...wont that be interesting....but imagine if you are in my shoe and everyone in your family is saying that. how would you feel? how would you react? what would you say?

i personally think it is damn fucking nonsense. i suppose i care too much about what others say about me.

just to make it clear!!!

i'm STILL with my boyfriend.

i dont know where this non-existent china guy is.

i'm staying with a girl---> esther(or claire --->she just feels like changing her name). she's in lots of my friendster pic.


the whole flat here is girls. no guys except for my flatmate's boyfriend. apart from that. no other guys.

so to those people who have such a big mouth... i would just like to say THANK YOU!!!!

Thank you for making my life so interesting and 'meaningful'. I cant thank you enough!!!! i hope it makes your life interesting and meaningful as well!!!